Life

2011-03-23T21:19:00.000-07:00

hahhha still true

WEDNESDAY, SEPTEMBER 23, 2009

DAYMMMMMMMMMMMMN people.
flirting does not mean talking.

2011-03-23T21:18:00.000-07:00

i need to be more organized

2011-03-23T21:17:00.000-07:00

girls that are beautiful inside and out

2011-03-20T23:06:00.000-07:00

So what does it take to be a good person?

2011-03-03T22:32:00.001-08:00

aight enjoy this post stranger

2011-02-01T19:58:00.001-08:00

“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”

2011-01-30T23:50:00.003-08:00

Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

2011-01-30T23:50:00.001-08:00

Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

2011-01-29T07:49:00.001-08:00

The big day

2011-01-28T22:07:00.001-08:00

God help me tomorrow.

2011-01-28T20:34:00.000-08:00

the beginning of my facebook abstinence

2011-01-28T19:59:00.000-08:00

1) Full Name: Jungwoo
2) Male/Female: male
3) Were you named after anyone? no
4) Does your name mean anything? don't think so
5) Nick Name(s): Larry
6) What do you think you look like: a person
7) Date Of Birth: Aug 26
8) Place of Birth and Current Location: a hospital, living room
9) Nationality: Korean
10) Astrology Sign: virgo
11) Chinese Astrology Sign: boar
12) Religion: Catholic
13) Whats your favorite smell? food
14) Political Position? dem
15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: water
16) Hair + Eye color: black
17) Do you look like anyone famous?: no
18) What do you look like? me
19) Any unusual talents?: no
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: righty
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: straight
22) What do you do for a living?: violin
23) What do you do for fun?: idk anymore
24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Idk
25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: idk
26) Have you met your grandparents?: yeah
27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: ha.
28) Crush: no more
29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: none
30) Current worries?: :/
31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): lol
32) Favorite place to be?: cloud 9
33) Least favorite place to be?: idk
34) Do you burn or tan?: neither
35) Ever break a bone?: yeap
36) What is your favorite cereal?: special k
37) Person you cry with: my heart and soul
38) Any sisters: none
39) Any brothers: one
40) Any pets: fish
41) An Illness: mental
42) A Pager: no
43) A Personal phone line: no
44) A Cell phone: yeap
45) A visible birthmark: yeah
46) A Pool or hot tub: none
47) A Car: none
48) Personality: idk
49) Driving: the best
50) Your clothing style: whatevs
51) Room: yes.

52) What's missing: waldo
53) School: dn
54) Bed: big fat one.
55) Relationship with your parent(s): great
56) Do You believe in yourself: i try
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: well maybe infatuation
58) Consider yourself a good listener: sure
59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?: yea
60) Get Along with your parents: yea
61) Save your e-mail conversations: ?
62) Pray: yeah
63) Believe in reincarnation: nope
64) Brush your teeth twice a day?: yeah
65) Like to talk on the phone: no
66) Like to eat?: yeah
67) Like to exercise?: yeap
68) Like to watch sports?: yea
69) Sing in the car?: yeah
70) What is a dream that you have all the time?: yeah
71) Dream in color: yeah
72) Do you have nightmares?: yeah
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: yeah
74) Right next to you: yeah
75) On your favorite coffee cup?:none
76) On your mouse pad: dell
77) Your favorite flavor of gum?: anything
78) Your brand of deodorant?: not sure
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: none
80) Your dream husband/wife: hahha

81) Hiding in your closet?: clothes
82) Under your bed: dust
83) The name of one of your closest/best friends?: Ashley Yusuke
84) Your bad time of the day: :/
85) Your worst fear(s): human emotions
86) What's the weather like: ok
87) Your favorite time of year?: winter
88) Your favorite holiday?: Christmas
89) A material weakness?: idk
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: Idk
91) At the top of your "to-do list"?: be a better person
92) The hardest thing about growing up: being a good person
93) A pet peeve?: bad friends
94) Your scariest moment: none
95) Your attitude about love?: im a hopeless romantic :)
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: none
97) The worst feeling in the world: idk
98) The best feeling in the world: idk
99) Who sent this to you?: none

2011-01-28T19:52:00.000-08:00

Describe your life for the past month in one word? busy
Who is the one guy you trust the most? idk
Who was your last text from? Jun
Where was the last place you fell asleep rather than your own bed? floor
What are the colors of your walls? blue
When you were in elementary school, did you change best friends a lot? dont remember
Whats the last thing you said? dont remember
The middle of last summer who were you involved with? myself
How do you feel right now? stressed
What were you doing at 8 am this morning? sleeping
Is there someone that you believe you will always be attracted to? yea
Who was the last person you yelled at? dont remember
Did you kiss or hug anyone today? no
Do you think people talk about you? yea, not good things either
Who was the last girl/guy you had a conversation with? sunny
If you were kicked out of your current residence who would you call? nobody
Where was the last place you hugged someone? at school
Do you have any plans for the weekend? nah
Who was the first person you talked to today? mom-woke me up
Do you know anyone whose name starts with a M, J, or Z? yeap
When was the last time you had your hair cut? last month
Do you still talk to your first love? idk
Is there someone you'd wait forever for? maybes
One thing you're looking forward to? a break
Are you a forgiving person? if the other person is regretful yes
Who was the last person to call you? sahiltheohbo
Who was the last girl that texted you? christine
If you could move somewhere else, would you? nahh
What did you go to bed thinking about last night? nothing
What brand are your favorite jeans you own? Kenneth Cole
Do you look more like your mom or dad? dad
What girl did you last hug? dont remember
Who did you last pinky promise with? Idk
This time last year, were you single? yes
Are you a jealous person? no
What was the first thing you thought of this morning? nothing
If you were getting married tomorrow, do you know who'd be your maid of honor? idk
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? yea
Do you think that you're a good person? idk
Do you ever bite your lip? idk
Do you think two people can last forever? yea
Do you give up easily? no
If you could change your eye color would you? no
Do you want to get married and have children one day? yea
Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? yea
Has anyone ever broken your heart? not really broken
Want something you cant have? fasho
Is there stuff from your past that you miss? yea
Are you in a good mood right now? sure
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment? yea
Is your heart broken right now? hurt
Are you waiting for something? yea
Who is the next person you will hold hands with? hhaha you tell me
What's the last sporting event you watched? football

2011-01-28T19:47:00.000-08:00

1. When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
idk
2. Do hugs make you feel better?
definitely
3. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
no
4. Do you start the water before or after you get in the shower?
before
5. What did you do today?
idk
6. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
yea
7. Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
permanent.
8. What is your favorite sport?
idk
9. What color is your shower curtain?
idk
10. Have you had stitches?
nope
11.How long ago did u hug someone?
yesterday
12. Do you believe that boys/girls have cooties?
no
13. Do you know how to use chopsticks?
yea
14. Lyrics stuck in your head?
no
15. Red Socks or the Yankees?
idk
16. What are you doing tomorrow?
competition/concert
17. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
dont really see her
18. Have u ever given money to a homeless person?
yes
19. What is your favorite cookie?
all cept oatmeal/raisin/nut
20. What is your favorite cereal?
Special K
21. What are you doing right at this moment?
nothing
22. Is it right for straight guys to get their tongues pierced?
if they want
23. Where's your favorite place to be?
cloud 9
24. What's your favorite song?
none
25. More of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
neither.
26. Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
nahh
27. Have you ever climbed up a water tower?
no
28. Do you dream in black and white?
dont really remember
29. Do you talk in your sleep?
no
30. Do you snore?
no
31. Funniest thing you've heard all year?
idk
32. Ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face?
no
33. What are you afraid of?
people's emotions
34. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
"sure"
35. like someone?
infatuated a while ago
36. Do they know you like them?
think so, and they got annoyed. my guess :)
37. Can you recite the alphabet backwards?
lol no
38. Who's on your mind right now?
someone
39. What are you listening to?
nothing
40. How do you feel about your life right now?
its ok

2011-01-28T19:42:00.000-08:00

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid, sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I LOVE sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want to go to college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve never written in.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I check out the same sex, at times.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy
I am an adrenaline junkie

2011-01-28T19:31:00.000-08:00

> If you were dying and had to tell the last person you texted one thing, what would it be?
I spend to much time with you
> Do you miss someone?
yeah
>What was the last thing you bought?
probably something at panera
> How'd you sleep last night?
extremely well
> Last person to make you laugh?
Sarah
What would you do if a random person waved at you from across the street?
wave back
> Do you have any tattoos?
nope
> When was the last time you cried?
too long
> What is your favorite color?
blue
> Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
sure
> Has someone ever broken your heart?
hope not
> Are you a type of person who cares what people say about you?
yeah, regardless of the person
> Honestly, if you could go back and change something in the past 5 months would you?
yes
> Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
yeap
Do you think anyone deserves a 2nd chance?
yes
> Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
yes
Explain your relationship status?
went from infatuated to single
Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
yeah
> Whats one thing you can't stand?
my decisions
What if the girl you liked, liked you back?
I'd be super happy hahha
> Is anything annoying you right now?
no
> Have you ever skipped school just because you were tired?
Nah
How has this past week been for you?
ok
> When did you last drop your phone?
3 hours ago?
Whose hand did you last hold?
my mommy (:
> Its 3am and you're drunk out at a party 20 miles out of town and you wanted to leave, who would you call?
i wouldn't be drunk
> Say you like two girls and they both like you back, what do you do?
I only liked one
> Do you find smoking unattractive?
Yeah
> What is your mom/dad saved as in your phone?
mom/dad
What song are you currently listening to?
nothing
> Do you know who your real friends are?
sure
> Would you change your eye color to blue?
no
When was the last time you talked to your number 1 on top friends?
uh idk who numero uno is
> What are you looking forward to within the next 3 months?
a break from life
> Ever been to Kentucky?
no
> How often do you drink energy drinks?
2 a year?
Do you love anyone who is not related to you?
i did
> Is it ever too late to apologize?
no
> Have you been on any type of online messengers today?
yea
About how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
9
What was the last thing you watched on the TV?
some weird movie
You're trapped in a room for 3 days with the person you fell the hardest for?
i think she knows so itd be awkward. but id pretend nothing happened and make it even more awkard. yay
> Do you like when people play with your hair?
sure
> Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
sorta
> What time did you wake up this morning and why?
9:00

2009-11-16T22:54:00.000-08:00

got it from Mei :]

> If you were dying and had to tell the last person you texted one thing, what would it be?
I love you? wtf?
> Do you miss someone? and who
Kinda. wish it was a littlee longer.
>What was the last thing you bought?
don't remember
> How'd you sleep last night?
good
> Last person to make you laugh?
Ashley
What would you do if a random person waved at you from across the street?
wave back
> Do you have any tattoos?
nope
> When was the last time you cried?
don't remember
> What is your favorite color?
blue
> Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
sure
> Has someone ever broken your heart?
pftttttt no.
> Are you a type of person who cares what people say about you?
depends on the person. if they're really annoying and think everyone loves them, nah
> Honestly, if you could go back and change something in the past 5 months would you?
maybe
> Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
next time? yeap
Do you think anyone deserves a 2nd chance?
depends.
> Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
nope
Explain your relationship status?
single mingle? complicated
Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
duh
> Whats one thing you can't stand?
annoying people
What if the girl you liked, liked you back?
happy? overjoyed? do something? probably won't happen though.
> Is anything annoying you right now?
no
> Have you ever skipped school just because you were tired?
Nah
How has this past week been for you?
pretty good
> When did you last drop your phone?
20 minutes ago
Whose hand did you last hold?
Demi
> Its 3am and you're drunk out at a party 20 miles out of town and you wanted to leave, who would you call?
i wouldn't be drunk
> Say you like two girls and they both like you back, what do you do?
I only like one.
> Do you find smoking unattractive?
Yeah
> What is your mom/dad saved as in your phone?
mom/dad
What song are you currently listening to?
nothing
> Do you know who your real friends are?
YEAH.
> Would you change your eye color to blue?
no
When was the last time you talked to your number 1 on top friends?
I don't think I ever have. maybe at school once
> What are you looking forward to within the next 3 months?
Christmas
> Ever been to Kentucky?
no
> How often do you drink energy drinks?
6/ a year
Do you love anyone who is not related to you?
no
> Is it ever too late to apologize?
hell yeah
> Have you been on any type of online messengers today?
no
About how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
6
What was the last thing you watched on the TV?
Two and a Half Men
You're trapped in a room for 3 days with the person you fell the hardest for?
play it out. jk. be normal and don't be stupid by trying to impress them
> Do you like when people play with your hair?
no
> Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
yeah
> What time did you wake up this morning and why?
6:50 shower

by the way, i hate sentimental shit

2009-11-05T22:05:00.000-08:00

You can't call it love. It's not even close.

2009-10-21T19:51:00.000-07:00

01. you’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.
02. you have been in a serious relationship before.
03. you own an ipod of some sort.
04. you do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.
05. you drink too much alcohol.
06. you have been to the olive garden.
07. you have taken medicine of some sort this week.
08. it is really cold in your house right now.
09. you are extremely dependent on others.
10. you do not like to express your feelings in front of others.
11. you ate a lot of food today.
12. it doesn’t take much for you to cry.
13. people consider you a happy sort of person.
14. someone in your family is rich.
15. you have been to disney world or disneyland before.
16. you hate when people constantly talk about themselves.
17. you are a good listener, but you hate complainers.
18. someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.
19. you have had a serious surgery.
20. your house has a spare bedroom.
21. your house is old.
22. you have at least one cousin under the age of three.
23. you have never held a baby before.
24. you can’t handle toddlers.
25. you have a painting in your room.
26. you have been to Canada.
27. you have been to Mexico.
28. you love cherry flavored lollipops.
29. you celebrate easter.
30. you observe lent.
31. you are catholic.
32. you do not believe in god.
33. religion is not important to you.
34. you want to have a big family one day.
35. you would rather have more sons than daughters.
36. you have more aunts than uncles.
37. you hate being too cold.
38. you currently are way more tan than everyone else.
39. you wear shoes in your house.
40. your parents are clean freaks.
41. you are more messy than clean.
42. you are currently angry at someone.
43. patience is so not a virtue to you.
44. your desk is extremely clean.
45. your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.
46. when you hear ‘black & white’ it reminds you of katy perry’s ‘hot n cold’ song.
47. you have no clue what that song is.
48. you think rap artists are completely pathetic.
49. you are glad George W. Bush is out of office.
50. politics are boring to you.
51. you take a vitamin daily.
52. you feel like you are sick often.
53. you hate throwing up.
54. you think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.
55. you also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.
56. you are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.
57. you love getting bubble baths.
58. you do not like chocolate at all.
59. you are allergic to nuts.
60. you have been stung by a bee before.
61. you have been to the emergency room before for something.
62. one of your parents is 50 or older.
63. you are the baby of your immediate family.
64. you hate broccoli.
65. cooked carrots are good, though.
66. you go on tumblr too much.
67. you are really comfortable right now.
68. you like witty t-shirts.
69. you are a major fan of underground bands.
70. you have been on an airplane before.
71. you are not afraid of heights.
72. you consider yourself paranoid.
73. you have had a panic attack before.
74. the thought of being old and alone bothers you.
75. you would choose the elderly over children.
76. you feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.
77. you have smoked weed before.
78. you think it’s way too cold outside right now.
79. you love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.
80. you would rather go to bed early and get up early.
81. you feel like the early bird catches the worm.
82. you are a big breakfast eater.
83. you are currently suffering from the common cold.
84. you are craving something salty.
85. you have been in a car today.
86. there is something plugged in near you.
87. you have heard of the tv show ‘private practice.’
88. you do not like medical television shows.
89. you prefer horror to comedies.
90. you adore leo & kate.
91. you think high-waisted pants look good.
92. you hate cheesy movies.
93. you enjoy camping out.
94. bugs don’t bother you.
95. you do well in school without trying.
96. you are extremely jealous of someone currently. (feels like I should be though)
97. you feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.
98. you like energy drinks.
99. you like italics.
100. you know the entire script of mean girls (HELL YEAH) jk.

2009-10-17T14:53:00.001-07:00

sentimental shit ruins my day.
stupid book.

2009-09-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

try not to say "LOL"
when you aren't "LAUGHING OUT LOUD"

2009-09-25T21:29:00.001-07:00

It was an amazing night.

2009-09-23T17:46:00.001-07:00

DAYMMMMMMMMMMMMN people.
flirting does not mean talking.

2009-09-19T15:00:00.001-07:00

I hate people who think that they're all that. please.
respect.

2009-09-12T18:05:00.000-07:00

I think the best thing for me would be to just shut up, stay quiet, and take everything in.

2009-09-04T18:36:00.001-07:00

"Good while it lasted, but something to forget."
lol. so true man xD

2009-09-04T18:26:00.000-07:00

I hate it. and everything else related to it.
so much. it's terrible.

2009-09-02T21:48:00.000-07:00

I hate it when people make everything so dramatic.
it's no big deal, so KEEP IT SIMPLE.

2009-08-30T23:06:00.001-07:00

My business letter is so... awkward.

2009-08-30T13:15:00.001-07:00

thank you Cody for BfmV.
if you've complained about my music before, just mute :)

2009-08-19T20:25:00.001-07:00

FINALLY KILLED THE VIRUS

2009-08-19T19:54:00.001-07:00

I hate people who hate other people for something when don't realize that they are the same as the people that they say they hate.

2009-08-19T19:27:00.001-07:00

I feel the difference.
It's not the way it used to be.

2009-08-17T16:36:00.001-07:00

Just to validify, last comment on cbox was me.

2009-08-15T14:41:00.000-07:00

Damn. I miss everyone at 한민족캠프.

2009-08-09T04:01:00.001-07:00

coming home.

2009-08-02T07:56:00.000-07:00

upload memo online after I get to America.

2009-08-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

7 more days until I get back to the US.
That's depressing.

2009-07-10T21:27:00.000-07:00

gooooood day.
woke up for volunteering.
9-12. last day! xD
ummmmmm.
thought soccer was at 12:30, but Mei changed it to 4:30, and then 1:30.
Kim and Mei were already there at 1:30, but everyone else was LATE. D:<
not that it was their fault. Noelle had some car thing, and Ashley had some... thing. idk. xD
before everyone came, we played 1v2. pretty intense. Kim played for a while, then like. switched off with Mei. xD their goal was in between Kim's shoes, which she took off so we could use as markers. mine was a big fat one between two trees. xD Kim's a good goalie. ;D it was... tiring. and fun. and good. :)
OMG. Kim rode a scooter to the park, so I stole it. and almost fell. I CAN JUMP. ;)
she had to leave at 2:15 to go ice skating D:
Ashley FINALLY came at like. 2:30-3:00ish. and her friend.
I learned Ashley's a beast. xD
soccer... didn't really play. everyone was just too "tired" D:
Noelle came really late, but not her fault. she brought pretzels. MY pretzels. ;) (inside joke)
played a LITTLE bit of soccer. then went to pioneer park. did nothing on the hill place. James came to my house since he didn't know where the park was, so I took him there.
Cody and Tim came toooooooo. left at like. 5:35 to my tennis thing where I was late to. xD
got home, shower, blah blah.
beach thing w/ little kids tomorrow. :(
SOMEBODY SAVE ME FROM THIS NIGHTMARE, I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF. xD
wish me luck! :)

2009-07-10T12:13:00.000-07:00

very disappointed.
nvm. :D

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2009-07-08T18:58:00.000-07:00

lol. jkjk. :)
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2009-07-07T03:49:00.000-07:00

Silence is... beautiful.

2009-07-07T02:03:00.001-07:00

2009-07-06T21:59:00.000-07:00

Korea next week.

2009-07-05T20:50:00.000-07:00

longg day.
stayed up late watching Wimbledon.
Williams beat other team in two sets.
Federer "steamrolled" Roddick.
woke up late, ate... don't remember.
went upstairs, did nothing, music, etc.
met with family's friends' families. little kids. gah.
from 3-8ish. soccer, frisbee, ugh. dead tired.
just got home, and I'ma sleep. maybe. probably not. :)

FEDERER 15

2009-07-05T12:18:00.001-07:00

2009-07-05T00:23:00.000-07:00

woah. really long and tiring day.
need to sleep. really bad. anyway.
tennis at 10:30 for an hour. killed my arms. xD
tennis for another 2 hours at Boys and Girls.
saw someone from OV there, but he freaking wouldn't let me tell anyone. cuz he's a secret agent. 0.o
went home, ate lunch late, went to watch RB parade. I was Noelle and Momo (not Mom)'s water guy. yay? haha :)
left at 5, went to little kid's house. I WAS a little kid today. I complained. and begged. to get outside the vicinity. mom finally gave in after around 2 1/2 hours. literally. took me to MRES, watched fireworks.
saw Ashley M. there. talked a bit. quite a while actually, with her family. rechargeable flashlights. xD
MRES fireworks KILLED my ears. and I'm blind. :(
didn't see anyone else other than Ashley there...
went back to kid's house after.
watched Troy and Matrix w/ Danny, since he wanted to.
GOOD NIGHT :D

2009-07-03T16:56:00.000-07:00

Wimbledon.
Roddick crushed Murray, and Federer just slaughtered Haas.
can't wait for finals on Sunday.

2009-07-03T04:08:00.000-07:00

Why is it I feel like I do? The never ending tide of the ocean, waxing and waning, carrying my memories and emotions on a journey, never to cease, never to be forgotten. Why does the tempest endlessly toss its hail and wind at me? The howling winds, ripping across the ragged, pained walls of my sanity, never to reach a shore of peace, never to find an anchor to secure me in to a life of happiness. Just as I begin to think that I have made it through another series of false hopes, despair, and distrust, another comes along to ruin my chances of achieving my dreams and trust for others. Forces, incoherent to all who place themselves before it, relentlessly batter the walls that contain my soul, reaching out to the shores of happiness, until inevitably, it is crushed by the sheer will of my false hopes, attempts to achieve happiness, and dreams that will never become a reality. Change, the only force that affects this unending cycle of loss directs my life in a different, more prospective course of my newly found hopes for the future. But this change takes away all other previous hopes worth keeping and remembering. Some hopes are to have friends, to be loved, to be able to trust, to be a somebody, to someone, anyone, in this pathetic child's world. In my world. I'm pathetic. I have lingered too long on impossible goals, unachievable dreams, and unobtainable happiness, through almost any means. I'm like a meteor; with bits and pieces of me, my hopes and dreams, breaking off, as I enter the atmosphere of the Earth, or the emotions of someone else that I care for. Yet, I am never to reach the surface, never to come in contact, never to be a meteorite, never to be a somebody. For a meteor so small and insignificant, there never was, and never will be hope to make an impact with the material's core. It will never leave a lasting mark, and it will not be remembered; I will not be remembered. It will never penetrate the boundaries set up by those falsely believing that they are happy. That they are safe. That they belong. The instant their barriers falter, all that has been held back erupts into a cataclysmic storm of pain and loss. How unfortunate. There used to be a time when I was truly happy. Little things in life made me feel joy. Sooner or later, the feeling of happiness begin to fade, and only came with certain occasions and special people. Now, impossibly unperceptive clouds, dark with confusion and pity, shroud my understanding of the emotion happiness. I fail to recognize when I am happy, and when I am not. Pressure in the clouds build, and a bolt of lightning that triggers confusion is released, causing an uncontrollable flurry of emotions. When the skies clear, when the lightning stops its unsympathetic fury, when I am brought to my senses; everything is gone. All that's left is dead memories, illusions in my head, and the destruction of my sanity, on the cold, unfeeling surface of the reef. I've tried everything to get away from this nightmare, but here I go again, lost in my head, with no new hopes, no new future to look forward to. But change will find its way to me again. Filling my head with new dreams, new loves, and a new sense of hope. All bearing false results. The cycle is complete; once again, I must endure from the bottom of the chain, and hope that finally, something awaits me at the top. Maybe the skies haven't cleared up for me yet. Maybe the lightning continues to strike. Maybe I'm still confused by the lingering illusions in my head. Maybe I haven't worked hard enough to reach the top of the chain. Maybe there really is something, someone, someplace, beautiful and longing. Maybe it's my fault I can't achieve anything. Maybe it's my fault that I cause so much pain for myself and others. I'm sorry. Maybe it's my fault everything can be so much better. I'm sorry. Maybe it's my fault happiness is unobtainable. I'm sorry. Maybe it's my fault I'm insignificant. Maybe it's my fault I can't penetrate others' barriers and get to understand them. Maybe it's my fault I just don't see. Maybe, maybe not. I'm sorry for everything. Maybe I'm being too pessimistic. Looking at the glass half empty. Maybe I'm just not having the right people/emotions doing the pouring.
Maybe I haven't reached a dead end. Maybe there's still hope. Maybe there's still a chance.
Maybe this is all just another illusion in my head.
Another false hope.
Another unobtainable dream.
Maybe I'm almost at the top of the chain.
Maybe this is the last link to conquer before snapping free of my bonds.
Maybe the beauty's already there, it's just that I'm too confused to see it.
Maybe I've obtained the beauty, but I fail to recognize it, out of foolish inconceivability.
Maybe the beauty's waiting, but with the patience wearing thin.
Skies, hurry up and clear. Lightning, stop striking at my emotions, trying to deceive me.
Maybe I'll know the answer by the time I think it through, and consider everything. Maybe, maybe not. I hope I understand, and I hope, if there's any left, to set everything right, to create happiness; to have emotions with the brilliance of clarity.

2009-07-02T23:11:00.001-07:00

Fine. Let's play mystery.
Welcome to the A.B., whoever you are.

2009-07-02T22:30:00.000-07:00

"They say a dream is a mind's way of making a difficult reality into a bearable absurdity."
So I guess all these dreams come true one day. Good or bad. Regardless.

2009-07-02T00:25:00.001-07:00

"Here, in the quiet hours after midnight. Like sitting on a beach. The night rolls and breaks and tosses up our losses like bits of wreckage, all that's left of one ship or another. We ceaselessly examine the bits of wreckage in the surf, as though we can put the past together again, but that's just torturing ourselves."

2009-06-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Ashley :)

2009-06-29T01:04:00.000-07:00

stole from Kim who took it from Paulina.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome. (of best friends?)
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart. (sarcasm? :D)
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid, sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I LOVE sushi.
I talk really, really fast. (i can if i want to)
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want to go to college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve never written in.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (no point in trying)
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I check out the same sex, at times.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy
I am an adrenaline junkie

2009-06-29T00:45:00.001-07:00

let's play some baseball shall we?
as long as we're on metaphors...
perseverance and determination is key to winning.

2009-06-28T22:16:00.000-07:00

Insanity comes quickly and forcefully, pressuring you to give in.

2009-06-27T17:56:00.000-07:00

violin at 9. almost fell asleep during the lesson.
tennis at 10:30. almost fainted. what a wimp.
first lesson with my new coach. only two more lessons until Korea though. she's an amazing tennis player. kinda scares me. she was pro. haha. worked me a lot though, until I could barely breathe. fun. highlight of my day.
nothing special. other than tennis.

2009-06-27T00:12:00.000-07:00

"Here one day, gone tonight. All gone too soon."

Haven't really been in contact with anyone recently, except for Ashley (M) who I saw a Costco. You always see someone at Costco. :) text from her "omg i c u!" haha.
it was like cat an mouse for a while. I was chasing her around the aisle thingy. I tried to scare her, but she turned around. :(( "first normal person I've seen in a while" ;)
rest of the day was boring. and Michael Jacksoning. w/e that means.

2009-06-25T23:57:00.000-07:00

did I mention I dreamed today?
it was a horrible/amazing dream.
it brought me unbelievable happiness. once I achieved happiness to its extent, it faded. slowly, one by one, causes of happiness disappeared. that's why I hate dreaming. that's why I try not to think before I sleep. that's why I try not to dream.

2009-06-25T22:18:00.000-07:00

not a great day.

2009-06-24T18:53:00.001-07:00

played tennis with Michael.
he got a lot better.
that was pretty much the peak of my boring day.
dead tired. might sleep early.

2009-06-22T21:58:00.000-07:00

sick. parents telling me to sleep. oh well.

good night :)

2009-06-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

I just realized, how freaking much I love Japanese food.
I ate at a restaurant for dinner. "rest- AWRRRRRR-aunt" according to Mom. xD
after that, went to some yogurt place.
they had FIVE PLASMAS. OMG. :D:D
they were showing really stupid Korean pop music videos though. eck.
I hate a lot of Kpop. They aren't famous b/c they're good singers, or b/c they have a good background, or b/c their music is good. It's because of their physical characteristics. I was watching one of the videos, and it was just one freaking lady in a showy costume that nobody wears in reality, showing one predictable scene where she cries, holds hands, hugs, etc. with some random guy at a bus stop, HORRIBLE MUSIC, and HORRIBLE SINGING. not that I'm one to judge. :)
stupid media. looks are a lot more important than they used to be. looking good is nice, but 2398472938 million bazillion dollars on makeup, hairdos, plastic surgery, and lazer stuff is pointless. looks DETERIORATE. I feel pity for the stupid, blind people that think looks are everything. personality pwns looks anyday. :) IF YOU HAVE AN ARGUMENT, BRING IT. xD
pretty rough day today. slept late last night, so I was really tired. struggled to wake up ;D
crap. I have to write an essay now. tutor tomorrow. and piano. :((((((((((((((((((((((((9
wish me luck? :D

good night :)

2009-06-21T11:27:00.001-07:00

I have to write an essay by tomorrow.
great.

2009-06-20T23:03:00.000-07:00

wow. :)
woke up pretty late to breakfast, didn't feel like eating, so I went back to sleep.
woke up at 11:00, ate a bit, went to violin at 12.
got home 1:30ish, did nothing. walked around the house a bit.
went to a party, it was amazing. :D:D
played soccer, met a guy named John that was really good.
swam. not really, just dozed off in the jacuzzi. xD
went to the park, walked to the host's house, talked, brawl (just watched), left.
teddy. ;) ;) GO FOR IT MAN. remember the 5 words. ;)

overall great day. tired. to. death. good night :)

2009-06-19T22:18:00.000-07:00

too lazy too post sooner.
woke up in the morning, watched a movie with Ashley, her sis, and my bro. Night at the museum 2. pretty good. :)
right after, SDYAS bonfire from 2-9. just got home. Sorry I couldn't call James sooner Mei :(
bonfire: amazing.
played some bball. Made a couple shots, played 5 on 5, 4 on 3, 3 on 3, and 1 on 1. pretty fun :)
then volleyball. D:< I freaking twisted my fingers. and bruised my hands. someone ran me into a pole on accident, so.... yeah. :D
dude. or dudette. :) I freaking wore jeans. and played sports for 5 hours. D:
tried calling parents to bring chairs and stuff, but no reception. :(
climbed rocks, went off shore, BONFIRE. roasted marshmallows. burnt 99% of them :D
made smores, but they didn't come out too well.
ate a burger, 5 sodas, and lots of chips. hehe. ;)
amazing experience. hope to go again next year :D
other than that, nothing. day was jam packed. with stuff.

hope everyone else had a good day too. :)

2009-06-17T01:27:00.000-07:00

The emptiness inside of me, now tugging at my heart, tearing it to shreds. Time to go try and sleep to escape this nightmare. It's too bad it'll always be caged inside me. It waits to be unleashed; then it will trap me in it's never-ending grasp... This animal... never to be changed, never to be tamed.

Good Night. :)

2009-06-17T01:17:00.001-07:00

Insignificance is a big word. :)

2009-06-16T06:43:00.000-07:00

sometimes, I wonder.... what is it?
sometimes, I will never know the answer.
sometimes, I only have to ask.
sometimes, I blame myself.
sometimes, I wonder what is the cause.
sometimes, I am the cause.
sometimes, I interpret the cause.
sometimes, I try, but I can't.
sometimes, I lose hope.

too many sometimes... I wish there was at least one always... and there are more than one.

always, I hope.
always, I dream. (not sleep :])
always, I'm waiting.
always, I'm preparing.
always, I'm understanding.
always, I'm accepting.
always, I'm denying.
always, I'm here.
always, for you.

Now, show me.
Now, tell me.
Now, explain to me.
Now, help me understand.

snuck on the say that. :)
off to practicing piano... D:

2009-06-15T16:17:00.000-07:00

FREEDOM TIME. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D WHOOOOO. :D:D:D:D
dude. someone left me a voicemail of love game by lady gaga. 0.o0.0o.0o.00o
weirdddddd......... xD

2009-06-15T15:36:00.000-07:00

BIT MY TONGUE. AHHHHHHHHH. :(((

2009-06-14T23:07:00.000-07:00

the internet...
can't live with it, can't live without it.
:)

2009-06-14T22:55:00.000-07:00

haha. sounds like summer's not going to be THAT bad. :)
my mom said I can make it more lenient. WOO. :D:D:D
that means TO DO LIST. :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

2009-06-14T21:25:00.001-07:00

MY SUMMER IS RUINED.
summer "vacation" is a time to enjoy yourself and prepare for next year right?
VACATION. HELLO MOM. VACATION.

Main Entry:
1va·ca·tion Listen to the pronunciation of 1vacation
Pronunciation:
\vā-ˈkā-shən, və-\
Function:
noun
Usage:
often attributive
Etymology:
Middle English vacacioun, from Anglo-French vacacion, from Latin vacation-, vacatio freedom, exemption, from vacare
Date:
14th century

1: a respite or a time of respite from something : intermission2 a: a scheduled period during which activity (as of a court or school) is suspended b: a period of exemption from work granted to an employee

my mom just ruined my whole summer. yeap.
from 6 in the morning to 9 at night, I'm busy doing SOMETHING.
I don't have ANY voice over my activities. AT ALL.
wake up at FREAKING six, violin, piano until 8:30, volunteer work until 12:30, studying from 1:00-4:00, "free time" from 4:00-6:00 when I get to teach my brother violin, and do CHORES, 6:00-7:30 reading and writing summaries, 7:30-w/e dinner, "family time", DIARY, reading, and SLEEP.

WHAT THE )(*@%)#@_)@#%_@#() MOM

I get at max 90 minutes a day to do what I want. NINE. TY. NINE ZERO. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
that means NO COMPUTER. :(
I'm not even allowed to stay in my room listening to music. and my mom's freaking STEALING my ipod touch until 4:00. GAHHHHHHHHHHH
SUMMER VACATION MOM. VACATION.

I can't, and I don't want to believe this is happening... :(
Everything I hoped to accomplish on my to do list is now pointless... except for a few. I'm still going to try to accomplish some of the ones I really want to do.

I'm going to hate this summer. I'm already beginning to. I hope something catastrophic comes up, and I get to do WHATEVER I WANT, and do EVERYTHING on my to do list. I hope. I hope. I hope... :)

oh great. my mom bought biology books, algebra 3-4 books, pre-calc books, writing books, essay books, reading books, grammar books. :(:(:( coloring books too. wtf? jk xD
gahh. so many things I want to do this summer... especially this summer, since a lot of things cleared up in my head. The confusion is gone. If you know what I mean. :)

wow. my mom just barged into my room, and was like. "CHORES. CLEAN YOUR ROOM EVERY MORNING." wtf mom... :(

I'll rebel. Just wait. You'll hear on the news one day, that some kid in 4S burned down his parents' house. or something like that. :D:D
I hope everyone else has a better summer than mine. :)

2009-06-14T18:03:00.000-07:00

concert just finished!
dead tired. D:
oh well. xD

I GOT A FREAKING GRADUATION PRESENT TODAY. from one of my high school friends. :D
they said high school's gona be sucky. thanks a lot -.- haha :)

concert went pretty well, and I'm going to the bonfire next friday. yay. :)
Idk if I have orch next week or not. hehe. w/e. xD
guild on tuesday. crap. I need to practice. like CRAZY. I hate practicing piano b/c I suck at it. D:
bwahaha. after tuesday, NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING. :D
oh crap. just remembered I have a piano lesson tomorrow. D:better go practice. :)

2009-06-14T09:31:00.000-07:00

since I was sick yesterday, all I could do the whole day was lie down somewhere, walk around the house, nap/sleep, and think. and play the freaking game cube for a freaking hour. I was that bored. D: after that, just went in my room, listened to music, and thought. Room was messy, music was good, and thoughts were bad, at first. Then BOOM. or KAPOW. w/e you prefer. xD I remembered that someone mentioned to me how lucky I was. to just be here, to always have something or someone to think about, to have someone that cares, to be myself, to have someone to care about, and a lot more. I spent a good 3 hours just thinking. Good thoughts. :) Thoughts about all the times I spent, the memories I shared, and connections I made. How foolish was I to think differently. oh well. I'm a fool then. :) Even the thoughts of oppurtunities that have not been taken yet, that have not come yet, and the ones that have not passed me by yet. I look forward to those, and I'm going to capture them. like pokemon with a pokeball. hehe. xD

To think, to live, to see you happy, to create memories, to know that there are more chances for bonding (atomic -cough cough- ;]) and memory making. Right now, life is good. great. amazing. astounding. wonderful. beautiful. glorious. happy. exciting. hyper. brings tears to my eyes. wtf? jk xD worth remembering. hopeful. oppurtunitistic. if that's even a word. :)

EXCEPT FOR THE STUPID CONCERT THAT AT 3:00 THAT I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT. D:

2009-06-13T17:28:00.000-07:00

really sick. can barely move now.

2009-06-13T14:23:00.001-07:00

dude. I woke up late. so I had to rush for orch.
orch was pretty tiring, especially since I was already kinda exhausted.
played until 12, carpool w/ dyan and eunji, got home.
ate ramen. again. :)
and now I'm on the computer, with nothing to do...
blog again later. :)

2009-06-13T00:56:00.000-07:00

1. When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
yesterday. MAN PUNCH. :D

2. Do hugs make you feel better?
depends.

3. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
does falling asleep count? JK xD

4. Do you start the water before or after you get in the shower?
what?

5. What did you do today?
a lot of things :)

6. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
isn't that what the sink is for?

7. Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
permanent.

8. What is your favorite sport?
soccer/tennis or any contact sport. xD

9. What color is your shower curtain?
I don't really pay attention to those things. :)

10. Have you had stitches?
nope

11.How long ago did u hug someone?
do man hugs count? haha.

12. Do you believe that boys/girls have cooties?
used to. :)

13. Do you know how to use chopsticks?
DUH

14. Lyrics stuck in your head?
yeap. :)

15. Red Socks or the Yankees?
red socks thanks to JAMES KIM.

16. What are you doing tomorrow?
orchestra.

17. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
LIFEHOUSE :D

18. Have u ever given money to a homeless person?
yes

19. What is your favorite cookie?
I love cookies. :)

20. What is your favorite cereal?
probably the sugary ones. :)

21. What are you doing right at this moment?
chatting, listening to music, trying to be quiet so I don't wake up my parents. :)

22. Is it right for straight guys to get their tongues pierced?
wha?

23. Where's your favorite place to be?
I don't know :)

24. What's your favorite song?
atm, won't even start.

25. More of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
neither.

26. Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
nahh

27. Have you ever climbed up a water tower?
0.o

28. Do you dream in black and white?
I don't dream.

29. Do you talk in your sleep?
hopefully not anymore. :)

30. Do you snore?
Idk

31. Funniest thing you've heard all year?
no idea. :)

32. Ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face?
IDK. :)

33. What are you afraid of?
not a lot.

34. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
something about Vegas from Michael

35. like someone?
:)

36. Do they know you like them?
guess. xD

37. Can you recite the alphabet backwards?
NO. :D:D:D

38. Who's on your mind right now?
someone... :)

39. What are you listening to?
david choi

40. How do you feel about your life right now?
has it's speed bumps. :)

2009-06-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

shhhhhhh. snuck on. :)
I ate like. dinner. and it was really good. :D
after dinner, I just closed my door, and listened to music for a good hour/ hour 1/2.
that's probably the best part of today. :)
I really have no idea what I'm going to do the whole summer...

2009-06-12T21:18:00.000-07:00

day UNO of summer vacation.
DUDE/dudette. I can't like. stay on the computer for as long as I want now, because I don't have the "I have to do hw" excuse. :(:( oh well. I'll sneak on sometime. ;D
woke up at freaking EIGHT in the morning to get ready for some volunteer orientation thing with Ashley which was at 8:30. I planned to sleep in, but oh well. xD
got home at 11ish, did NOTHING. FREAKING NOTHING. OMG. NOTHING AT ALL.
I just stared at a wall. literally.
well not nothing, it could be considered practice for looking at nothing? :D
youtube for like. 10 seconds, gmail for 10 seconds, blogs for 10 seconds, facebook for 10 seconds.
dude. omg. I like. found my really really old NINTENDO GAMECUBE. opiJFOPEIJopjopiJEWIPFJOSDAIJ;FioejfoiJWEIOP. YES.
I played super monkey ball for like. a whole hour. pathetic, I know. xD
went biking with Ashley later, got home, ate ramen like a beast. :)
played SUPER MONKEY BALL again. then went to tennis at 4:30ish.
played with my dad's friend's son and others. pretty intense. and a good waste of time. :)
just got home at around 9:00 and started blogging. omg. I can smell dinner from my room. it smells so goooooood. haha. kinda late for dinner. :)
nothing tomorrow except for orchestra. gahhhhh. concert soon. D:

yesterday:
PROMOTION. YES.
haha. woke up, did my hair, showered, put on perfume, etc. jk xD
got up JUST IN TIME to put on my clothes, asodfjoaiwejofijea to school. :)
everybody looked really casual/formal. apparently, I was overdressed. xD
promotion. was. slow. and boring. and. not as hot as I expected. :)
got all the certificate things, took pictures w/ whoever I could find, went to visit 7th graders, got mauled.
went to promo party. pretty intense karoke action. ;) ;) sang a really nice duet with someone, but we got a 85% cuz the lyrics were modified, and I messed up. really fun and great though. :):)

after that, went to Joyce's promo party after. pretty crazy with all the people. xD
played brawl, went outside and played catch, watched people play twister, etc. :)
then the cake. OMG D:< D:< D:< D:< D:<
seriously. I ate some INVOLUNTARILY. :(
haha. someone caked someone else, and then BOOM. xD
SRUTHI D:< D:< she got my glasses and my NOSE. D:<
haha. got her hair back though. :D
Alina was totally killed. Nish and someone else (don't remember who) caked her pretty bad. she had to take a shower. xD
too bad Kim had to leave right before :( I would have caked her pretty bad. xD
sat outside in the grass, looking at the sky. then BOOM. Nish just HAD to start talking about MEGAN FOX. like. wtf. xD
everyone left at 9:00 except me, Ian, Luke, Tim, Michael, and Nish. guys night out. ;) ;) ;)
bwahhhaa. we had some pretty intense man talk. JK xD
overall a great and memorable day :)

2009-06-12T17:57:00.002-07:00

I wish that I could just sleep through summer vacation.

2009-06-10T22:58:00.001-07:00

I write here today, for the last time, as an eighth grader, middle schooler, child, and much more. Promotion tomorrow. :)/:(

2009-06-10T16:31:00.001-07:00

should I do it or not?
I guess I will. :)

2009-06-09T20:25:00.000-07:00

neon night tonight. :)

got there early, just waited outsideee.
didn't wear any neon xD yes, I'ma noob. :((
signed in, just walked around until we ran into the magic show. :D
I CAN DO MAGIC TOO ;)
we then went to the water gun/ ping pong ball place, but got kicked out because I was splashing Michael. xDDDDDDDDD
haha. then HULA HOOPS. :D:D:D Kim won like, insanely.
and I lost the next match like, insanely. :((( haha :)
then food, more food, ice cream. food was okay. just ate cuz I was starving.
ice cream with gummy bears pwn, even though they aren't supposed to be hard. xD
played tag, totally used all my energy. :D

haha. then went to the quad to see the magic show, and then raffle.
sat in the back with Kim, couldn't really see anything. :D
you better keep that promise miss. ;D
haha. dude. I was sooooo going to win. :)
took a few pictures, but SOMEBODY was being a bad photographer. jkkk ;)
had a great time. :D:D

overall at neon night, I wasted myself, got hyper, ate quite a bit, splashed people with a water gun, got kicked out of the water gun booth, chickened out at the doughnut eating competition, expected to win the raffle when I didn't (xD), played tag, ate ice cream, talked a lot :), and just had a good, insane, crazy, loud, time. the best in a while :)

2009-06-08T19:17:00.000-07:00

dad, being an engineer, found a way to go past my NPC and block chat on gmail. might not be able to bypass and chat for a while. so if it says I'm on, don't chat until I chat with you until I chat first. until further notice. thank youuuuuuuu. :D

2009-06-06T22:57:00.001-07:00

somebody spare me from this boredom.

2009-06-05T15:42:00.000-07:00

"I've been confused by the illusions in my head ... I'm waiting for you, to get that feeling once again, reunited in the end..."

2009-06-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

concert was okay.
after concert was good though. haha. :)

science final. D:
socratic freaking seminar. D:
and other stuff. D:
that I don't remember. :D

2009-05-29T17:23:00.000-07:00

thinkety think think. :)
I like thinking.
Thinking's a good thing. especially about important things! :D
I like cross referencing as well. ;]

I'm sleep. later. :D

2009-05-29T15:48:00.000-07:00

pretty boring.
science. FOOD. xD
Kim, Dyan, and Veronique baked cupcakes. mmmmmh. :)
I thought their project was the best. ;]
ecofuture: went cleaning up, ate a Panera
SS test was okayish
so school was boring. except for the talking and walking. :)

haha. senior I know is going to college next week. D:
having a party tonight. with kids. xD
wish me luck? :)

2009-05-28T03:07:00.001-07:00

I seriously shouldn't have drank OJ. xD

2009-05-25T23:10:00.001-07:00

I hate being sick. D:

I'm an official quiz stealer.

2009-05-25T23:06:00.000-07:00

Describe your life for the past month in one word? busy
Who is the one guy you trust the most? none
Who was your last text from? Ashley
Where was the last place you fell asleep rather than your own bed? slouched against the wall
What are the colors of your walls? blue
When you were in elementary school, did you change best friends a lot? didn't have any
Whats the last thing you said? "out. now."
The middle of last summer who were you involved with? me, myself
How do you feel right now? tired, bored, etc
What were you doing at 8 am this morning? sleepwalking. jk
Is there someone that you believe you will always be attracted to? define
Who was the last person you yelled at? little kid
Did you kiss or hug anyone today? no
Do you think people talk about you? depends
Who was the last girl/guy you had a conversation with? mom
If you were kicked out of your current residence who would you call? nobody
Where was the last place you hugged someone?
Do you have any plans for the weekend? this weekend? nothing
Who was the first person you talked to today? mom-woke me up
Do you know anyone whose name starts with a M, J, or Z? michael, mom, margaret, mika, joyce, james, jubilee, jason, john, zainab
When was the last time you had your hair cut? this month
Do you still talk to your first love? define. could be my mom for all I know. jk
Is there someone you'd wait forever for? define forever
One thing you're looking forward to? :)
Are you a forgiving person? not at all
Who was the last person to call you? eunji
Who was the last girl that texted you? Ashley
If you could move somewhere else, would you? depends
What did you go to bed thinking about last night? things
What brand are your favorite jeans you own? what?
Do you look more like your mom or dad? apparently my mom
What girl did you last hug? I think it's which, not what
Who did you last pinky promise with? Idk
This time last year, were you single? yes
Are you a jealous person? depends
What was the first thing you thought of this morning? I. want. to. sleep.
If you were getting married tomorrow, do you know who'd be your maid of honor? no idea. don't think about these things.
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? I don't consider it wasted
Do you think that you're a good person? no
Do you ever bite your lip? no
Do you think two people can last forever? depends
Do you give up easily? no
If you could change your eye color would you? no
Do you want to get married and have children one day? possibly
Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? yes. :)
Has anyone ever broken your heart? I really don't know
Want something you cant have? too many to list
Is there stuff from your past that you miss? definitely
Are you in a good mood right now? define
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment? I don't avoid.
Is your heart broken right now? define
Are you waiting for something? possibly
Who is the next person you will hold hands with? you're asking me?
What's the last sporting event you watched? soccer

2009-05-25T18:32:00.001-07:00

sick. :(

2009-05-24T17:33:00.001-07:00

gah. just bored. :(

2009-05-24T17:20:00.001-07:00

palm springs: HOT
I. was. on. fire. the. whole. time. :(
swam twice. slight sunburn.
went shopping. 3 hours. drove home. 3 hours.
tired to death.
haha. one of the only good things was being able to blast music in the car on the freeway. which bothered my parents a lot. :)

2009-05-23T09:30:00.000-07:00

good news: I'm going to palm springs
bad news: with little kids. wish me luck? :)

2009-05-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

No matter what people might say or do in response to whatever you may have said or done, get rid of your mask and show everyone who you truly are. People might act that they don't love the one that truly lies under the mask you may wear, but they're just trying to hide their own feelings from you. On the inside, they want to know you more, realize who you truly are, and if you're persistent enough, they come to love the real you. I realized that my reaction has been harsh and unfeeling. I apologize because I realize that this would cause you, or anyone else to think that the changes you are showing in yourself is having a negative effect, or damaging us. What you do or who you become doesn't hurt us, it merely prepares us for the revelation of things that we have never acknowledged. Please, consider everything you do to show yourself as an act to teach us and prepare us for the better, true side of you. :) People love who we are outside of our own shells of privacy, and at first do not like the change in us. Life is full of choices, and making the right one is never easy. Consider the possibilities created by one's actions, and how other people are affected by them. All change is good. :) Some people cannot see through the one that lies before them, and it may seem that they only love the one that they can see. In reality, they just don't want to see them change, but once they do, they will accept this change, for them, in order to be able to be happy, together. Once again, I must apologize for causing any misunderstanding. Don't lock yourself away and keep the mask away from you. Please, show me who you are, share any thoughts that you might have, and don't hide anything from me. Don't pretend to be happy, don't pretend to enjoy yourself, and don't pretend to smile; do those things for yourself and live your life the way you want to. When you are truly happy, I am happy. I see that I have been happy at the wrong times, and I see that there are things that disrupt the possibility of happiness together. Constantly show your true colors, don't hide your feelings about anything, and people will know that you have changed, and love you for who you have become, or decided to show. Then, we'll be happy together, and I'll love you for who you are. I am beginning to already, and will come to fully love the one you are going to reveal inside of you. :) This will only happen if we work together, and only if we understand each other. Please help me accomplish that. Stay strong, be yourself, be proud of who you are, and don't let anyone tell you that who you truly are isn't what they want to see. You know who you are. :)

2009-05-23T08:29:00.000-07:00

no computer usage until Monday. :(
until we got back from palm springs. I mean. :)